I’m looking for a quiet week. One where I can go on about my normal routines – working, sleeping, going to the gym, making dinner, or just sitting down to enjoy some well-deserved time in front of my friend, the television.
I’d like a week where I’m not bogged down by blind-siding news.
A few weeks ago, I received an email from the homeowner of the house I currently live in. She thanked me for being such a good friend and tenant but it was time for her to put the house up for sale. Um what? I had a feeling this would come one day. How can someone really own a home in one state and then live and pay rent in another without it finally taking a toll in some way? I guess I wasn’t truly prepared for this news. I am so spoiled living in this beautiful home for next to nothing. Anyway, I immediately went into panic mode and hit craigslist to look for an apartment. I’m impulsive and impatient and thought “Oh, I’m going to have to be out by the end of the month.” That was not the case. I chilled a little bit and figured that it’s going to take some time and the house won’t sell in a day (hopefully). So I have some time to plan, save, and find a new place. Without Stove.
I know the house going up for sale is not a big deal in the long run. She has to do what she has to do. It will lead to find a great place with a great friend (details to follow).
Last week, I was in a course for Life and Health Insurance (for my job – I would never willingly take this course because it sounds “interesting.” Ew no.) Anyway, Monday, I came into work, ready to tackle whatever I missed and get back in the swing of things. As we wrap up our weekly team meeting, my boss tells me that she’s resigning. Um what? I mean, that’s great for her and I know it was a hard decision for her to make. But hello?! I’m still learning!! I know nothing (comparatively speaking) and what if I screw up every project?! My chest got tight with stress and worry. Her last day is next Friday and I won’t even be here (I’ll be here).
I know there is a hidden opportunity for me in her leaving. I’ll have to step up to the plate and really make an effort to learn and grow as much as I can. Show them what I’m made of and kick any insecurities away. And keep asking questions! Also, I’ll have more one-on-one with our Executive VP and hopefully, he’ll recognize my work and my efforts.
I am trying to remain positive with my recent bombings. With any bombing (or disaster) comes the immediate aftermath of chaos and “WHY!” But when the dust settles, look around. You will see the positives among the rubble. Trust me, they’re there. You just have to push the debris aside to find it.